Initially wanted to continue with my old blog address but decided to start a new one as it's easier to keep track and this also represents a new milestone in my life. "HK expedition" brought me many wonderful memories; guess they were too wonderful that I am feeling so blue now as things turn out to be so different when I am a full-time student here (compared to being an exchange student).
Apparently, the admin people here don't really get what I am trying to tell them and I had trouble with some of them. Even Prof. Wu (my supervisor) told me to be polite in the emails I sent out as the admin people remarked to him that I am rude in the email. Please lor, if I am rude, then they are super rude lor. Sigh, don't know what to say. Things just seem so different from the exchange period.
Sometimes I wonder whether I made the right choice in coming over here. Maybe I should have just go to NIE. If not, I could have chose NUS to do my Masters. Coming over here means I have to start everything afresh. Maybe I am proud or whatsoever, but it just don't feel good to feel so small. In addition, people here usually talk in canto (Hong Kongers) and mandarin (mainlanders). No one to discuss Chemistry in English with me. Sigh sigh.
Things got worse when I was told that I am given Analytical Chemistry and Molecular Characterization lab for my TA duty. Prof. Wu made it kinda clear that he wouldn't help me to talk to the prof-in-charge to change duty for me as he don't wanna trouble people and also it's not nice to do so. Sigh sigh. Why am I given modules which I hate the most for my TA duties? Some form of toughening up for me?
The feeling is scary. Suddenly, I felt as if I've lost all my chemistry knowledge when I embark on this trip. The sending off on Sunday (14 Jan) was kinda sad event for me. I felt I have lost the ability to teach, push arrows, present etc. Why do I feel this way? Is it because things didn't turn out the way I expect it to me? It's a good toughening up process but the road ahead is bound to be tough.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment